The feeling on earth that can’t I escape!

I’m always wondering, am I really that wrecker? Am I always screwing things up? Do I always fucked you up? Wherein all I do is just being me? Dang it! Why do I have always this feeling that everybody’s gonna leave me the moment I do a single mistake. Why I have this feeling to be so cold, to be so unkind, to be so mad at the world, to be so homeless! Why I have this feeling I want to be alone ALL the time!

Why’s that despite how I try to be so happy, things suddenly turns to be so obscure! Oh please, don’t say it’s a challenge of life. I’m sick of it!¬†