It’s been a long time, I guess. And instead of me should start working, here I am writing this post.
I stumble upon on The Daily Post‘s blog and saw their latest post for daily prompt‘s asking which emotion(s) do you find to be the hardest to contain?.
I saw the word envy and so, for me, it is the hardest emotion to contain more than hatred. Why I say so? According to Merriam-Webster Dictionary, envy means
the feeling of wanting to have what someone else has. It’s okay to feel envy but each emotion can have its utmost level and everything that is too much is bad. If you envy someone because her/his personal looks, there’s possibility that you are loving yourself less. Insecurity and hate to yourself why you are like that and this could emerge without you knowing that it is already consuming you.
We should love ourselves before we could love someone else, for acceptance of who we truly are is the way of finding our wandering self.
There are events that comes along your way and sometimes you simply don’t understand why these circumstances are happening and right back on your mind you’re drudging yourself asking why? That moments when even you, you don’t seem to understand yourself, you get upset or even don’t like something but you don’t know what is it the irritates you that much. That moment when you are hurt even it’s unreasonable for you to feel that way. That moment when you hit the wall because of madness and even you see your hand bleed, doesn’t satisfy you yet. That moment when you thought you were crying because of a movie drama then you realize that it wasn’t that sad enough to make you weep then you will suddenly ask yourself: Why am I crying? That moment when you’re asking: Why I’m feeling this way? Why I’m acting this way? Why I’m asking these things? (Shrugs)
That moment when, even you, YOU don’t know the answer at all.
Because we are busy minding our own emotions, we unintentionally become selfish. Because we are busy minding our own wants, we unintentionally ignore the feelings of people that surrounds us. Because we unintentionally unnoticed what counts more, we destined to lose some things we ever needed.
If only you knew that I care about you, you will know how hard it must be in my part to be lost in time that destiny fulfills us to be.
Tho, would my faith will stop me from walking away from things that are far to be seen? Would you stop me?
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It’s hard to compete with things that came before you. ~ Shira